September 23, 2011
It was my 22nd birthday, but my parents were in Singapore. So I was alone during the whole weekend. But it was not a big problem for me since I had arranged birthday dinner with DATERs of JPCC. I would not be lonely then :D Jabrik arranged our first meeting before the dinner. Remember, it was our first meeting since nine months passed by when I finished my course. He sat by the window and stood up when he saw me entered through the door of the cafe. He shook my hand and spoke so many wishes for my birthday. He also gave me a lot of gifts: He made a sketch of my face, gave me sunflowers, rainbow bible (my wish gift), and mochi cake ;)He gave a letter also to describe each meaning :)
To: Leticia Seviraneta
Hi Leti, first I want to say "Happy Birthday" again to you. As God add years to your life, may He adds life to your years ;) Btw, you still look like 18 years old girl, haha (not like me, who like 25 years old man). With this letter, I want to explain each gifts that I gave to you.
Sunflower -- No doubt about that, you love sunflower right? Haha you said that you had a dream that I try to find a sunflower for you but I can't give it to you because sunflower is a rare thing at Indonesia, haha, so with this sunflower I hope you'll feel happy because now you have something special, rare, and beautiful thing haha :) Don't forget to change the water every 2 or 3 days, so the sunflower can still alive.
Mochi -- Yes, maybe you already know the reason behind "moci", it started with your quotes "Aku suka moci, karena MO CIum pipimu wkwk", you know maybe it's a simple quote but this is the most funny quotes I've ever heard and you also said that you like "green bean" mochi, that's why I bought you mochi, enjoy it :)
Picture of You -- I like to listen an old song and for me "Picture of You" sung by Boyzone is a nice one. You gave me a Van der Sar mug, now I give you a sailor moon :p I try to give a "dual picture" which described you as a sailor moon (beautiful, funny, and heroic girl) and a pastor (I know this is your passion and what God called you to be). ONE DAY this picture will turn into reality #amen.
NIV Rainbow Bible -- Well, you already guess it very well because I ask too much about it haha :p, but it's okay, I know you really really want to have it and you're willing to go to Times just to read this bible. I hope you'll feel happy when you have it at home :) May you get closer to God and Jesus by continually read this bible :)
I hope you'll feel happy with all gifts that I gave to you. I'm not giving you music box, cake, or maybe a dress because I want to give you something meaningful. Whenever you feel weak in your faith, look at the sunflower. Like you said before, "We are the sunflowers. God is the Sun. There are many times we feel that we are not loved, we are abandoned, we are alone. Yet God is always there. He loves us in a way that we don't always understand. But the truth is God is always by our sides. He is already ready to lift you up at the darkest moment in your life. And our part is simply stare at him. Love Him. Imitate Him."
Whenever you feel sad or don't know where to go, look at the "Picture of You". You have to know that basically you are a hero, brave, and funny girl. Don't let the tear drops rust your shining heart and beautiful face. Also you are a "pastor going to be", keep it in your mind that someday you'll be a great pastor even now you have to walk through the desert of life to reach it.
Whenever you have a question to God or want to know "what God wants you to" look at the bible and start to read it. You'll find an answer there.
Alright Let, may this year be your best ever. I hope all your birthday dreams and wishes come true.Not just a year older, but a year better. God will always walk beside you and He promise to be 'the voice behind you and guide you in the way you should go' (Isaiah 30:21).
My plan for your future is always been filled with hope (Jeremiah 29:11) Thank you Leti for reading my letter, God bless you as always :)
I attach his letter to give you a picture these words meant a lot to me at that time :) Jabrik had been a friend of mine through good and bad times. Since then we met frequently, until 'the storm' came. His mother suddenly asked him to never meet again [ps. I have never met her!]. There are some different reaction that men will do when they are in similar position. Some rebels, some obeys. Jabrik chose to obey. We knew that rebelling against his mother would only make us more difficult to receive her blessing later on. Besides, we knew that that was not what God want for us to do. Our flesh might want so much to do so, but the Spirit of God of Peace would never use such way. There it goes, three months separation with almost no interaction between us. But Jabrik created a blog from the very first day His mother forbid us to meet.He consistently wrote me a new post everyday :) *sweet*
God-written love story is certainly not a fairy tale. It still has its conflicts, external problems, temptations, and so on. The thing which differentiate God's love story between common ones is because it surrenders completely to God and trusting Him that He is in control no matter what happens. It was a painful process though. God confirmed us to meet again three months later but the storm had not ended completely. There were moments when we are tempted to give up. One time, as the conflicts grew all the more and toiled my strength, an anonymous e-mail were sent to each of us. Exactly at the same time. Here it is:
May 27, 2012. 08.15 PM
Dear, I know that you and someone have struggled hard for several months now. I don't know exactly what problems are you facing right now. You may often ask yourself "Is it true that this is the way God wants me to pass?"
God has given you many signs in this difficult time. God's purpose is only one, so you will keep fighting and finish the mission of God.
God gave you such a signpost. Each guide gives a straight mark, right, left to the city of your destination. Though you walk hundreds of miles and not see your destination city yet, you will still go ahead and feel safe when you see signpost indicates you are in the right direction.
The difference between the signpost of the God and common signpost is always the distance mark. In common signpost, you can see how many more miles you will arrive to the destination city. But the signpost of the God just gave it to you a straight path with no sign telling how many more miles you will arrive.
It teaches you to walk by faith. Believe in the Lord that He will not steer youth wrong way as long as you obey his commandments.
The good news is, Yes ! this is the way God intended for you. This path is the path where God wants shape your character and the character of someone close in your heart. Afterwards, both of you will receive the promise that God has already made.
call it a True Love.
When God has brought you to a road, obey Him and He will deliver you safely to the city. Be Still and know that He is God.
So many tears of sadness you have cried in the last few months. God saw that and the bible says,
When the Lord restored the fortunes of a Zion, we were like those who dreamed. Our mouths were filled with laughter, our tongues with songs of joy.
Then it was said among the nations, The Lord has done great things for them. The Lord has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy.
Restore our fortunes, Lord, like streams in the Negev.Those who sow with TEARS, will reap with songs of joy.
Those who go out WEEPING, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them.
Keep moving forward even though you have to sow it all with tears.Eventually, your tears of sadness will turn into tears of joy. There are many things that God wants to teach and mold you during this period.
Your test will become your testimony to glorify His Greatness.
Faith will keep your dreams alive.
She sent me three emails in a row since I had not read it at that time. Jabrik once received it, thought that it was one of deviotionals He subscribed on. On the next day, when we met up, we realized that she sent us at the same time and we are sure that she is really talking to us! [In case you're confuse who is she ... I believe she is a prayer who hears from the Lord] She knows every detail of our problems and always came when things getting so difficult. What a great and living God I serve!
Later on, I discovered that her name is Faith. We corresponded for a while. I considered her as a very mature person in the Lord. She taught me so many wisdoms of God to help me understand His way during our journey. I will only attach some of her letters here ;)
I offer you this prayer, to help Leticia current relationship situation. Please take away all the worries and anxiety in her
heart. Fill it with love, joy, patience, and understanding. Bless she and her partner, so that they will never surrender to whatever challenges that come their way.
Fill their hearts with love for each other, and may You make each one of them realize each other's worth. Please touch their heart, fill it with much love for me. Make their complicated relationship become uncomplicated. They seek for Your mercy and blessing that You may allow them to spend the rest of their lives with each other. Please make this feeling mutual for both of them. Lead them not into sexual temptations. Guide them wherever they go. Always put them in each other's heart and mind. Thank you Lord for hearing their prayer. I love you. Amen.
I believe the two of you can continue this relationship until marriage. Keep a holiness and sexual purity in your relationship so you can tell to many people about it, and they could see the glory of God inside your relationship and marriage.
Your partner have a heart that full of love for you and you are the only woman he wants to marry. He is currently in a period of spiritual growth. You may not see clearly the fruit of God is working inside him. But God has His Own way to guide, shape and prepare him to be a pastor too, so that you could be a couple of pastor. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit
Bless you Leticia. I will listen to you whenever you have problem and I want to help to strengthening your faith.
Hope is the last gate of faith.
Leticia, I do love you and your partner. Your partner is burdened with the problems that exist in your family. But that does not make his love fading to you. He was a cautious person when making a decisions. By deciding want to be with you throughout his life, he has made the boldest choices in his life. He has a great faith that this relationship and your family will be restored by God.
Many men may like you, some of them could love you the way you want to be loved.But only your currently partner who loves and wants to remain faithful to you even though he knows there are so many problems. Look for a partner that has been tested in difficult times. Just as faith must be tested with time & various trials.
Your partner is a person who has a very strong faith. Although sometimes he doubts, he is quick to re-believe in his faith. What he believes with his faith is right, what he was hearing from God is true. He will not survive in this relationship if he did not believe that you are his true love for the rest of his life. You can support him in the process of his spiritual growth. He has a determination, perseverance, and faith. I'm sure that two of you can form a godly relationship and a beautiful marriage that will glorify our Lord.
Bless you Leticia
Leticia, When we have received our God-given dream it is time to start the preparation phase. This might take years. Not something we want to hear when we are eager to go! But it is very much needed. Even apostle Paul
had years to prepare before his public ministry.
Too many of us give up with the God-given dream because it seems to take too long to come through. We start doubting our sense of call: “Maybe it all was a fluke” or “What was I thinking?” But this is the time when the enemy tries to attack us and distract us from preparations. This is the time when we are tested whether we believe, whether we are faithful in small tasks. This is the time when we need to act in faith. This is the time when we need to restrain from any activity that would undo our preparations.
God put these problems in your family and your relationship because during this waiting period, God still wants to teach you many things for you and for your partner. These things God will not be able to teach it to you when there is no problem in your family and your relationship.
I was impressed with what God did when problems arise in your relationship. God made your mate closer to Him. The Lord opened a new window in his life to become a pastor with you. Your partner is a person who is very confident and have strong faith. It's hard to shake his faith. He is the kind of guy who would just wave the white flag when his dream has been really shut down by God. A few months ago, God has closed one of his big dreams, because if God granted his dream, it is impossible if he wants to become a pastor.
You two really love each other and have a dream to get married. God knows it, but before His children get married, He wanted His children are well prepared. God sees it not a time yet for you two to be together in a normal relationship.
Imagine if there was no problem in your relationship. Your life will probably be happy for a while. You can spend a lot of time together but you guys missed a mission from God. The greatest happiness of a Christian is when they are given a mission by God. This indicates that they are trusted by God.
When God pause or delay something, it is used for your good. God stopped the sun for Joshua so he can lead Gibeon to win the war. It is not Joshua who stop the sun, but God. Because God has a plan and God can pause something in order to fulfill His plan. He use Joshua faith to accomplish His plan.
Leticia, you are a perfect woman of God. God will use you and your partner to shine like a sun. Your mate is very grateful to have the heart of a woman like you. Sincerity, sacrifice, loyalty and commitment are the values that are very valuable in your heart. Your partner will be faithful to you both in joy and sorrow. You do not have to worry that he will look for another woman just because a problems in your relationship or in your family. He also understands there is something that God wants to teach you.
The Lord told me, your partner
faith is weakened because a statement by his mother. I justwanted to tell you ,that if her mother's statement are words that do not correspond to the word ofGod, for her statement contain the unwillingness to reconcile. Those words are the words of the devil like. God never taught it. Tell Billy, if such words were temptations of the devil to impose his "unshakeable" faith.
God was pleased with your
willingness to keep the holiness in your relationship. Keep it up, every effort that you made to maintain the holiness, God will use it to open a miracle door for your relationship. Look at the fruits of what God is doing at this time in his life. If there is no in your relationship, it is impossible for Billy to bear a fruits of God. .
Leticia, the Lord hardened his mother's heart because there are still things that God wants to do. And more importantly, God knows it is still not a good time to open the miracle door for your relationship.
The delay is not a rejection of God, but His delay is to protecting your relationship from the worst case, and it is an opportunity for God to bear a fruits in your
life. Imagine an apple tree that is not illuminated bythe sun, could it bear a fruits ? NO. Sometimes the Lord will use anything to hurt you to make you grow and bear fruit.
God always working together effectively. Like a bible said;
And we know that in the All Things God works for the good of Those Who Love him, WHO have been called according to his purpose.
Do you (and billy) are called according to God's purposes? Yes, so the verse and this promise is for you guys.
God was pleased with what you ask for Billy and his family to love his mother with an extreme love. Leticia, You are children of God as Matthew 5:9 saying. It is your words that must be heard by Billy, not the words of his mother that contains the unwillingness to reconcile.
Remember that many people miss God's best because they give up too soon. You two will be the pastor to be used by God, live by faith and not by fear.
(1 John 4:18)
Love banishes fear.
Be like Joseph who never stopped hoping for release from prison. Every day he hoped the Lord set him free, he never weaken his faith even it took more than 2 years in a prison. Finally, God freed Joseph of Joseph and immediately brought him to a remarkable degree. That is what God will do to you guys, A big rainbow after the storm.
When you're married to Billy, the whole heaven will shout for joy because the Lord delights in His children'smarriage. A Godly prince and A Godly princess. I promise I will be there because I know it will be WONDERFUL.
There are more Faith's letter. I would like to emphasize that once God gives us a promise, He will fulfill it. But in the mean time, there may be troubles which actually are a test of faith. God has stretched my and Jabrik's faith so much throughout this circumstances. Some people say that when parents disagree about our relationship then the door is closed. For some people it works that way. But for us, since we have received the promise of God, we can know for sure that God is working throughout our difficult circumstances. I know deeply that there will come more tests in the future to stretch out our faith. I guess I should end this post with ... to be continued .... :)
(1 John 4:18)